Joy to the World Anyway
Both spaces have shown me the need for traditions that bring us back to joy, especially when the night is dark and the howling, frigid wind finds its way through every single-paned window and every batten board of the barn.
Both spaces have shown me the need for traditions that bring us back to joy, especially when the night is dark and the howling, frigid wind finds its way through every single-paned window and every batten board of the barn.
I learned how to use the mechanical bread slicer to slice fresh loaves of garlic tuscan, and how to base-ice a buttercream celebration cake.
I took an Uber Black back to my hotel just because I could.
If I need a healthier item in a hurry, I can always spend my entire paycheck on just one item at the Lexington Co-op, which is located only a few blocks from my apartment.
Each night I picked a spot at least a hundred yards from our tent and then listened, obsessively, for the sound of mischief.
Sometimes I take my tea, and sometimes I don’t.
On other nights, Dad would come out to campfires we were so fond of building, cracking open a big can of baked beans to nestle into the coals on the edge of the pit.
While my purpose wasn’t the conversion of my coworker, I like that she might think about God’s interest in her life when she walks past the bananas.
I struggle to find contentment and seek new adventures almost compulsively.
It felt like we had pulled one over on the natural order of things.
That’s how I felt, at 10 p.m. on a Sunday night, in a town that you may never visit—with my stethoscope around my neck, gloves on my hands, and ski boots on my feet.
I learned to wriggle my fingers deep into the mud at the base of the green leek stems and to gently coax the bulbs from the earth.
Death, in our lived experience, is horrifyingly final.
I walked our meat department every day looking for the perfect bird on which to dote and ultimately roast to golden, crispy-skinned perfection.
Then there’s hunting, and the days that dad would pull us out of school for a “family emergency” so that we could chase after dogs who chased after pheasants and then watch as their iridescent feathers caught the autumn sun.
A nurse stood at my head, encouraging me to take slow breaths.
I haven’t been well enough to take a trip with a friend in three years.
I couldn’t remember what it felt like to have something left at the end of the day.
Blind tenacity doesn’t quite seem to fit this season.
This is not the place to use your energy. Smile and move on.
I figured that she deserved to hear about one sunny day when I wasn’t in pain.
I used to think that gratitude would rob me of joyful anticipation.
I feel beautiful and wicked—flying fast and fearless.
If all of creation is spinning towards destruction, why does anything matter at all?
Even if all I managed was driving to the patrol room and re-stocking my pack, I wasn’t going home to the couch.
It is remarkably easy to forget the fullness of story in each chicken breast.
The rawness of this proximity to life makes me feel vulnerable, sort of like therapy but without the armchairs.
Her comment broke the meditative silence of our post-dinner respite, and we stumbled into the idea with the dazed confusedness of young students in the presence of wisdom.
Choosing hope today doesn’t deplete what’s available to us tomorrow.
I used to finish races like that so sweaty and happy and exhilarated that I didn’t need any rum to feel like the queen of the world.