I’ll admit, the older I get, the more I become a religious Grinch about Christmastime. Not that I’m, like, keeping a blacklist of businesses that say “Happy Holidays” instead of “Merry Christmas” or something like that. I support holiday diversity. I may have had to restrain myself the other day when my boyfriend told me “Merry Christmas” (it’s still Advent, and the whole point of Advent is that it isn’t Christmas yet!?)—but I’m chill! I even listened to Christmas music during Thanksgiving week this year. It was not my idea, but I issued no complaints, because I am a tolerant person.

The holiday season is ramping up, though, and my Grinch-ness is growing. Lately it’s acquired some fun edges of progressive virtue-signaling and Dutch frugality. As in: Why do I need to get presents for all these people? What do they even want? I need to get them something; I’m going to buy them fluffy socks. These socks were likely made with unjustly cheap labor and designed by AI, and of course everyone already has socks. But I can’t not get them a present, and I don’t know what they really want…so Big Retail stays winning. Nobody better get me anything this year. I have too many socks.

The same thing happens at the downtown Christmas market. Why are we buying seven-dollar hot chocolates and wading through crowds to look at overpriced goods? People are cold and lonely and without shelter less than a block away. Since when are we gatekeeping the Christmas spirit behind a paywall? Is this how I’m celebrating the birth of Christ? And while we’re thinking about it, why is everyone so calm about this weather, when climate change is getting worse?

And so on, and so forth. At this point you may be pleased (relieved, even) to learn that I’ve maintained a soft spot for one holiday staple: Christmas lights.

I know, I know, they’re landfill plastic and a waste of energy. But I put strands up in my apartment as soon as Daylight Savings hit. (Technically, I’m reusing the plastic, since the lights are on loan from someone’s basement storage.) Their golden glow frames my windows, making the pitch darkness at 6 p.m. less disturbing and almost cozy.

Looking at them makes me think of John’s words about Jesus: “The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it” (John 1:5 ESV). The KJV says, “The darkness comprehended it not.” I like that word “comprehend”—it describes something more complex than merely illuminating the dark. After all, as a functional light source, Christmas lights don’t do that much. But there’s something about them that transforms the darkness, that makes us feel warm instead of cold. Their light loosens the suffocating grip of winter nights, even if they don’t disperse the night entirely. They’re like a lighthouse that’s been dashed to pieces and spread along the glittering snow.

This year, the Christmas lights are for me a symbol that God is with us, even when the darkness seems impenetrable. They remind me that Christmas isn’t about the perfect gifts, or the merriest time, or even the best that humans can do for each other. Rather, it’s about what God’s love did for us—and the hope our world has because of it.

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